I’m started praying her…

From a book, written by Grace Suryani dan Steven Halim, title : “Tuhan Masih Menulis Cerita Cinta”, May 12th 2013, I started praying her.

Dear God in heaven Holy is Your name
Thank You for raising me up until this day
I have been very blessed
to be able to know You,
to be saved by You,
And I’m thankful for whatever I endure
in this world so far
Both the good and the bad
Because I believe that whatever happened,
it was Your plan

Dear God
Today, let me utter this cry, this hope
God, this is my prayer
If this is Your will, let it be done in Your time
But if it is not, please show me Your ways

God, You know my need of a life partner,
someone, just one woman, to be my wife

I need someone with whom

I will build a family that will serve You everyday (Joshua 24:15)
I need someone that when we both together,
we will be more effective to serve You (Ecclesiastes 4:9)
Since the beginnings You’ve said
that it is not good for man to be alone (Genesis 2:18)
And You know inside out the every reason
why it is not good for me to be alone
The passion to relate with the opposite gender
that You have installed in me is so strong
I don’t want to burn in passion
like what Your apostle Paul advised us (1 Corinthians 7:9)
Because love is as strong as death (Song of Songs 8:6)

Your servant is weak and tired Lord
I’m tired of the searching process
that I have endured since many years ago
I don’t want to divide this heart of mine to
someone not of Your choice anymore

Therefore, please Lord, if possible, that the
next one will be the final one
The one that You have provided for me
The one who fears You and put You as
number one and I’m number two (Proverbs 31:30)
The one who can accept me as what I am
The one whom I will love for the rest of my life
as You have love the church (Ephesians 5:25-31)
The one who will love me back in return (Ephesians 5:22-24)

She may or may not known to me
at the moment
But when we meet
Tell me Lord
Let me know that she is Your choice for me
Tell her Lord
Let her know that I am Your choice for her
Let the feelings towards each other grow

But God
I come with my own family background,
my character, my vision, my self
will she be able to accept that?
I have many very bad characters
will she be able to accept that?
Can she accept me as what I am?
God, I still have many other reasons to worry
And I’m really worried

I hope that I can find a wife of noble character,
but who can find her? (Proverbs 31:10)
She will also carries her family background,
her character, her vision, her self
Will her vision be compatible with mine?
I think I’m tolerable enough,
but can I fully accept her character as she is?
Am I strong enough to accept her as what she is?
God, I still have many other reasons to worry
And I’m really worried

But God
You have allowed me to learn the process of a relationship
with all those that I’ve endured
You have been with me always
During all the happiness and all the bitterness
I have learned that it takes more than just feelings
towards each other

It also takes more than just sacrifices
And therefore I should not worry too much
about all those things
Because I know, You will always be with me
And that without Your intervention,
all relationship will not succeed
This time, we will always keep you in our plan

So please God
When You finally let me meet her
Let our future relationship ends up
in a firm decision of marriage
And our marriage receives Your favor
(Proverbs 18:22)
On that day, I will say to her:
“You are bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh” (Genesis 2:23)
“Now, let both of us do great things for Him in the future”

Finally, don’t worry God
You will still be number one and she will be number two
And I believe that she will be fine with that =)
In Jesus name I’ve prayed
Please answer this prayer in Your time
And give Your servant a heart
patient enough to wait
And let her know of this prayer too

Thank You



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